"I Was Here"

I've been listening to Lady Antebellum lately. If you're not familiar with this trio, I encourage you to check them out. Yes, it's country, but they are putting out some really good music. I love groups with tight harmonies, and these three have it.

Not only do they have great harmonies, but they have some songs with some very profound lyrics. "I Was Here" (proper English aside) has hit home for me lately. Here's a sample of what the song has to say...

I wanna do something that matters, say something different,
something that sets the whole world on it's ear.
I wanna do something better, with the time I've been given
And I wanna try to touch a few hearts in this life
and leave nothing less than something that says I was here

For those who know me, you know I've been struggling with my job lately. Not so much with my specific job (which is driving me nuts), but with the sense that I should be doing something more with my life than living in a cubicle in front of a computer. I guess I'm still trying to figure out what I want to be when I grow up, but I fear I may have missed my chance to do something about it.

The bigger problem for me is that I kinda know what I'd like to do, but sadly realize that it's likely never going to happen. I also know what I'd like to do if money were no object, which would afford me the chance to give it a shot with no consequence of losing my house or other such things. Again, it's unlikely to ever come to pass.

Sadly, I realize that I have a very limited skill set, and have become accustomed to a certain salary range (which has been pretty much the same for the last 7 years, which is equally depressing), and that my opportunities to affect the world through my vocation are practically non-existent. I can't help but think that there's got to be more to life...more to my life...than IT in the insurance industry.

Sorry, my first post in almost two months should probably be more uplifting than this, but I prmised myself that I woudl be honest in these posts. I thank you for bearing with me!